I've been embarrasing myself a lot lately. I don't do it intentionally but as soon as the moment passes I give an internal "Doh!". I hate feeling like an idiot. So much so that after getting wrecked and making a complete ass of myself infront of Tim Kasher I haven't reached that level of intoxication and vow to never act like that again. I thought maybe if I didn't get wasted I could control my stupid mouth. No such luck. I still say stupid things. I hate carrying around that feeling of embarrasment and by the time it fades I seem to do it again. Damn me and my mouth. Maybe it's not even my mouth, but my thoughts. Damn my stupid thoughts. I'm not an idiot... Why must I act like one? I'm going to make an effort to bury myself in education and good deeds.
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Can't tell you how many times I have said or done something just dumb and just let it eat at me like crazy. Seriously in some cases I think about it for days and even months later if it comes to me again I just repeat the cycle. It makes me feel rather pathetic. But I think that I'm the only one that really notices it. Guess I'm trying to impress myself too much.
Posted by jess c. | November 28, 2006 3:37 PM
Posted on November 28, 2006 15:37
Everyone says and does stupid things it is the curse of the intelligent to recognize it.
You are a better person for owning up to your mistakes and I am very proud of you.
Posted by nicole | November 28, 2006 10:07 PM
Posted on November 28, 2006 22:07
you're not trying to take my title from me are you? oh well, i had a good run. and if it makes you feel better you could always dye your hair blonde then you'd have an excuse. don't beat yourself up over feeling stupid, or for that matter, anything else. regret gets you nowhere. you can dwell on your mistakes, or you can learn from/make up for them. go buffs!!
Posted by dave | November 29, 2006 10:44 PM
Posted on November 29, 2006 22:44
Everyone does dumb things... The people you ever make an ass of yourself in front of have done it before and will do it again. But good deeds are never a bad thing, but you can't hide from who you are, and I know you, who like me likes to just be dumb and have fun sometimes without over thinking the whole world. Don't feel bad about it just don't hurt people or their feelings and seeming dumb once in awhile can easily be made up for by showing those close to you that you are much more than that most of the time.
Who is Tim Kasher? and why does he have any right to judge you!
Posted by Dan | November 29, 2006 11:09 PM
Posted on November 29, 2006 23:09