the Nonsense in Between

today's horoscope couldnt be farther from the truth

You have so many original ideas today
that it's hard to follow through on any one of them.
is is a great time to break some of the old habits
and experiment with your life. You don't have to
get it right the first time. You're just exploring
new possibilities, so give yourself permission to
make mistakes as you consider all the alternatives.

no original ideas today.
no exploring.
no alternatives.

but i'm not.

The weirdest thing happened after i turned in my last term paper and i havent been able to shake it. I should feel relieved and elated that the pressures of school have finally lifted, but i dont. I think i didnt deal with a lot of things the way i should have. i pushed things into the back of my mind so that i could push forward and when i finally had a minute all these feelings started tearing me up inside. i guess now i should just let them run their course and hope the course is a short one.

So i made a couple of lists on Seekler. But i genuinely hope you are all enjoying today, however you've decided to spend it.

A few weeks ago my husband wrote of our little mouse problem and back then it was just a little problem. After the horrifying death of that first one I did not want to murder any more. Before then I had never seen a cute little mouse have its head smashed in mousetrap before, its brains spilled out onto the floor and its lifeless body still haunts me. Since then, I thought that maybe we could take a buddhist approach and live in harmony with them, after all who are we to say they don't have the right to live? Well that approach worked until the little fuckers multiplied and got smarter and braver and bolder. We agreed to eliminate temptation if they agreed to stay out of sight but they broke the treaty when they started throwing parties late at night, breaking into cabinets and leaving...messes.

For the last couple of days its been all out war. And by "war", I mean Dominic sets the traps and Dominic empties the traps and I squeal in horror everytime he says "we got one!" Yesterday that process was repeated SEVERAL times and in one five minute span with one mousetrap Dominic caught FIVE mice. And afterwards i cried for half an hour. The sound of the mousetrap snapping over and over still rings in my head. Today the battlefield is quiet but the threat of another bloodbath still looms.