the Nonsense in Between

makes me feel. makes me see. its inside me. its who i am.
running changes nothing. they always pull me back.
i speak of "them" as if they were. they were always me. me them.
the pain was/is all of ours. spun miles to deny it.
but in their tired eyes is my guilt. my burden.
my heart hurts. my skin crawls.

makes me want to hide, push them all away, call it by a different name.

it remains, Home.